What an intense week

My second term of college started on Monday. What a fun school schedule I have this term. I think the easiest way to do this is break this down by day class and what happened. So here goes nothing

Monday:
Fundamentals of Biology (lecture portion) :
The teacher is an interesting piece of work. He is an older gentleman. A black man from Guyana. His class is going to be extremely difficult. He talks extremely slow and with a heavy accent. He... also... has a.... habit... of.... separating.... all... his words... with.... long.... pauses. Oh yea. Its going to be ridiculous. I'll be doing a lot of book reading. But thats a good thing right?

Intro to Theater:
This class was not what I was hoping it would be. What I SHOULD have taken was an Acting class but hey you live and you learn right? Not to mention the teacher is really awesome. She seems like she's gonna be great. After talking to a few people I have only heard great things about her. So that is always good.

Fundamentals of Biology (lab portion):
Same teacher as the lecture portion, so I have the same issue as the other class. The lab for Monday was interesting. Five minutes of stepping onto a stool and stepping off. Five minutes. Then we measured heart rate. And how long to took to return to the starting point. I def got a small work out for the day

Tuesday:
Developmental Psych:
This teacher is so sweet. I already love her. She is so soft spoken but knows how to command a room. Our first class she had us do a meet a greet. I have extremely high hopes for this class and the students in it. (oh btw. If you watch Mythbusters, the episode testing open windows in a hurricane, the girl running the testing facility is my professors daughter)

English Lit:
I don't know what to make of this class. The teacher comes in, sits down, and just stays there frowning. She didn't say a word, just glared at us and glanced at the clock. The SECOND it was ten o'clock she stands up and starts lecturing. Still frowning. After going over the syllabus, she explains to us that she never smiles. That it is just the way she is. After listening to her (and coming to class again on Thursday)  I realized she's right. She seems like she will be a nice teacher. I certainly hope my assessment is correct.


I have plenty more to write about from my first week. But as far as school goes. Monday repeats itself on Wednesday, and Tuesday on Thursday.... But after school stuff is just as entertaining for this week. So... maybe later today? Maybe not. But at least you have a general idea to what I'm doing in class now

so much to say no to time to say it

I have so much to say. So much has happened this week. But I haven't had the time to tell. Things are going great. So... I hope I have time later on today to update you all on whats going on in Sarah's World

A new thing.... Flashback Monday

So does anyone remember this??



Anjela Anaconda! This used to be one of my favorite shows so when I caught myself singing the theme song in the shower I decided I would revisit this old show. After watching just a few seconds of the clip I realized while my mom hated it so much. The voices are much more annoying than previously remembered. It must be a thing acquired with age.
I couldn't remember much about the show. In fact all I did remember was that Anjela was a ginger, her female friend was fat and ate all the time and her male friend was foreign and weird.
Then of course there was "Ninny-Poo". The blonde rich bitch.

Thats about all I remembered of this show until I went to watch clips on youtube. So here is a clip. (Please feel free to leave your flash back cartoons for next week)

You wouldn't approve

None of you would approve, but I don't live my life for you do I? I am happy. To me that is all that matters.
My phone dies on a regular basis now because someone actually wants to spend their time talking to me...
They think I am interesting and intriguing. Not to mention they find some way to compliment me daily. Things like telling me I am beautiful, sweet, and things of the sort.

They don't mock me. Poke fun. Don't pass off cruel words with an "I'm just kidding with you".

They make me smile without even trying. Care about where I am going with my life and what my fears are in making that life a reality.

They listen to what I have to say. They remember. They are interested in my mindless rambling.

But you wouldn't approve. You wouldn't even consider how happy I am. Because you are interested in what I have to say. You don't care. You don't listen.
They are everything you are not

Oh how I love SITS

Oh thank you Alexis for showing me the site. Its wonderful.
Today while looking at the featured blog (which is actually from yesterday) I discovered the domestic dork. She has this great idea for a valentine exchange. I think the idea is splendiforous!!!
Soooo....

If you think you might be interested in joining the exchange, hurry and hop to. Today is your last day

I'm bored so why not

Survey One 

Where did you begin 2009?
I was working downtown at Panchero's

What was your status by Valentine’s Day?
I was taken


Were you in school anytime this year?
Yup Yup VCC


How did you earn your money?
I had a job for about seven months, then sitting

Did you have to go to the hospital?
To visit someone but not for me



Did you have any encounters with the police?
I always do. But I am never the one in trouble


Would you relive 2009 over and over again?
Hell FUCKING NO.

What did you purchase that was over $1000?
Tuition??




 
Did you know anybody who got married?
Yes quite a few. Amber and Zach prob being the closest

 
Did you know anyone who passed away?
I knew who they were but didn't know them personally

 
Did you know anyone who had a baby?
Um.. I am trying to think. No one that I talk to. But they are all due in Jan



 
Did you move anywhere?
Nope. I stayed put for once










 
What concerts/shows did you go to?
I dunno. Multiple with my dad. Too many to count

 
Do you still have the same job as you did in 2008?
I wish 


Has anyone betrayed you in 2009?
Eh not really


 
Where do you live now?
Hell. Well not hell. But hell is just down the street


 
Describe your birthday.
It was eh. But the day before was pretty awesome. Gay Days

What’s one thing you thought you’d never do but did in 2009?
I can't honestly think of anything



 
What has been your favorite moment?
My birthday present???

What’s something you learned about yourself?
I am more and more like my mother everyday 


 

 
Any new additions to your family?
Nope. But coming soon. 

 
What was your best month?
January

 
Were you in a relationship this year?
Yes,

New friend?
Alexis (btw not the most flattering picture you posted darlin)

Favorite night out?
I dunno.

 
Would you say you’ve changed since the beginning of this year?
Yea. A lot

 
Do you think 2010 will be better or worse?
I pray its better and I will do everything in my power to make it so

 
Did your style change in 2009?
Kinda. I don't dress up anymore

Do you think you showed your parents enough respect this year?
I dunno. Prob not
 

Where will you end 2009 at?
This  has yet  to be decided.

Because I believe in the power of the human mind

Please read the following blog
http://classyinphilly.blogspot.com/2009/12/for-brandy.html

Thats all folks!
Be a doll and pass it on

Its Christmas Eve Day

I am quite excited. We actually have a Christmas tree and stockings up this year. We had presents under the tree starting from very early December and whoopee we are opening them tonight. I know that is a little abnormal I know. But my dad works tomorrow so we decided to do it tonight. I am very very very excited.
I will update this after I open presents and the pup and dad open theirs

This is bliss

Both of my girls are sleeping in my arms. Oh wonderful night :D

I feel as if my story never changes

So maybe it is me who needs to make some huge changes. I am still the same person I was in middle school. Granted I have gained some wisdom throughout the years. But I haven't changed. If you knew me then you know me now.
I feel the same things. That's why I felt this blog was necessary. I am a person who needs to be with people. But I think I get overwhelmed by more than one person. So I appear to cling to that person. And I guess I do cling. But thats really biting me in the ass. I need that human interaction, but for someone who isn't like me (not centered on one person) I must seem intolerable
I guess this is a message to my girl. Saying that I am sorry that I need to be with you so much. I know that I drive you crazy. But thank you so much for dealing with me and my needy whiny bull shit. I do love you ever so much. And I'm going to try to lay off some...

But ultimately you make me fear making other friends. Last time I branched out and had friends other than you, you freaked out. Every move was looked at with suspension. I never wanted anyone but you, and I still don't. I wish you would get that through your head. Wish you weren't so insecure. If we can just work on your confidence issues, then maybe I can break out and finally have friends again. Not be scared to make plans with other people. But as it is now I fear that by making new connections I weaken ours.

Does anyone else feel like this at times? Or am I completely clingy and suffering from Dependent Personality Disorder?

To audition or not to audition

That is NOT my question. I wasn't able to go to my audition today. My girl decided she didn't want to go. Said she didn't have the time. Which very well may be true. But without her I had no way to get home. So... I didn't go. BBUUUTTT!!! There is another audition on January 7th. I am going. No doubt about it. The two week break gives me time to get shit together though. Time to get back in shape. Time to get back into the swing of dancing. To get a headshot done. And to put together a theater resume. I'm gonna do it. I think I would be good at it. I will be an outstanding employee. Do absolutely everything in my power to go above and beyond the call of duty. Oh joy!

But... about those headshots. Is there anyone out there who has a decent enough camera to help me out? I need them by the 6th. Depending on the quality of the print I am willing to compensate (unless I have to print and edit myself). If no one has the time or camera, do you know of a good photographer in the area that is affordable? The quicker someone is able to get back to me the better  :)

I promise I haven't fallen off the face of the earth

I'm still alive you guys! Isn't that just amazing. Sorry for my lack of updates. I have been very busy with school. I made A's in both of my classes! So at least I know that my hard work pays off. Just hope I can do the same next term. I will be switching campuses, THANK GOD, and taking nineteen course hours. Its going to be ridiculous and overwhelming. But if I want to be at UCF by Fall then this is what I need. And I know that if I try hard enough and stay focused I can do it. And pass with high marks.

Other than school I have been working on improving my personal life. I know one of my last real entries was about my relationship falling apart. Well as of this moment things are wonderful again. Whatever it is that we are it cannot be defined. But that doesn't bother me anymore. I am happy. I should be content, and am content, in knowing that I am loved. Really that's all I want out of life. Someone beside me to hold me at night and who truly loves me. That is the perfect life. There are bound to be disagreements and fights, but from each hard place you come to value the good times all the more. I wish more people saw things that way.

The only two things in my life I'm not content with are my lack of job and my body. While my hunt for a job has thus far been fruitless, I am going to an audition at Disney tomorrow with the girl. (she shall hence forth be referred to as my girl until situations change) And as far as the other aspect. I start a diet next week. I've done this one before. Its pretty easy to follow. And highly effective. I would have already started but I have to go grocery shopping first. And since I don't get any money until Friday.... Yes. Wait til Monday. Come Monday I will begin. Come 2010 I will be myself again. I will be revived. I will FEEL beautiful again.

Its a shame that I place so much of my happiness on my exterior. But I am still a teenager, though only for six months, who lives in America. Its been conditioned in me from as early as I can remember that thin is in. Thin is beautiful and to be large is to be disgusting and without self-control. Now. Don't get me wrong. I do know that that is not the correct way of thinking. I know that everything I said is ridiculous and false. However, its a feeling. Emotions and logic do not go hand in hand. For those of you who know about my past, don't worry. This will not be a repeat of that. I am going to be adhering to a very strict diet plan. I will work out three times a week. I will take drastic steps to give myself the best life I possibly can by being as healthy as possible.

Now if I have anyone out there who is willing to be a workout buddy... Well so be it. I would GREATLY appreciate some company and extra motivation!

Well. Thats all I have for now. I have plenty more to write but just can't right now. Someone should text and remind me to update this damn thing every now and then

It was scary how accurate most of that test was

I suggest you try it too. It only takes a matter of seconds

Sarah took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!""Is very intense person who seeks excitement and s..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

Way long, But yea

I was asking all my friends the other day to make me wish lists for things they want for Christmas. I still want that BTW!!! But I figured fair is fair. I have been adding things to a list now for a few months. So here is my super long list of things I want. They are very varied so take your pic. Get creative. I can't wait til Christmas because I usually give inventive gifts. Anyone who reads this I would appreciate it if you would leave a comment..In the form of your list. Please and thank you!!

I-pod

(or high quality mp3 player)

Black boots

(high heals. Cut to the knee)

French Quarter Gift Basket

(http://www.cajuncreations.com/detail.aspx?ID=192)

Starbucks gift card

VS gift card

Barnes and Nobles gift card

Any camera with a 24x zoom and at least 12 Mp. OR an underwater camera

(brand doesn’t matter)

Noir perfume from VS

French themes decorations

  (black and white prints, Eifel Tower)

 

Gift card to a decorating store

(IE Pier One)

Picture frames

(black trim)

 

Comp table

(kinda like this one

http://www.walmart.com/catalog/detail.gsp?image=http://i.walmartimages.com/i/p/00/04/26/66/61/0004266661084_500X500.jpg&product_id=11016187&iIndex=1&isVariant=false&corpCard=false&type=-9223372036854775808)

Throw pillows

(black and or red)

Bike

New pajamas

(holiday tradition)

The new post secret books
 

New purse
 

A new Orleans pot hole necklace
 

Rosetta Stone

(german or Spanish)

Jewelry tree or wire hanger
 

Shower radio

(I used to have one when I was little. Well worth the $6 I spent on it)

Clinique gift card….

Do they have those? If not for dullards

Black shelving

(weird I know but definitely needed)

Sushi rolling kit

(I know they have some at Disney in Japan)

Spa day!!

( I know EOE Inn is affordable… WONDER HOW)

Offer to get my film cameras developed LOL

Charm bracelet starter

Water fountain

http://www.walmart.com/catalog/product.do?product_id=10401713

Cook books
 

Candles
 

Celtic Knot necklace or ring

Robbed of Robbin

Growing up I never watched the classic Disney tale of Robbin Hood. (I have seen every other Disney movie I do believe.) Though I know the story very well I have never gotten around to seeing the Disney version of it.
But I put it on today (go figure I have the movie). I see a lot of borrowing from other movies? Little John. He is a big bear. As in Baloo from the Jungle Book. And guess what? They are both voiced by the same actor. Oh Walt. Were you unable to find another man willing to play the slightly goofy fat bears? And then Robbin's outfit. Who does it remind you of?? Looks very much like Peter Pan's does it not? Originality is failing.




More similarities!!! The hen. Who's name in the movie I am not grasping momentarily. Well. Little miss Henny sounds and acts very much like the geese in Aristocats. I do believe its a different actress.But she does act the same. Its a shame that the biggest producer of childrens' movies has so much redundancy.
Again drawing upon Aristocats. I do believe one of the bunnies is the same voice as one of Dutches' kittens. You can see the similarity when the little bunny tells Maid Marian that kissing is "sissy stuff".

Maybe its not that big a deal that I have never seen this movie. I don't feel like I missed much

Sick or depressed?

I stayed home from school today. My head has been throbbing. I am exhausted. I've thrown up three times. I have a fever. But am I sick? Or is my body just reacting to the extreme stress I am under right now. I definitely have plenty of reasons to be stressed. And I am sadly only human. I would honestly love to crawl into a hole and just stay there. Never emerge. People are so over rated. So self centered. Why do we even need human contact anyway? I don't think we do. I think its just something we have been brainwashed into believing. I am all for packing up and moving into the woods. Live in a little cabin in the mountains. Catch my own food. Just give me my puppy for companionship. What else would I really need? I don't need anything from the outside world. Those are all just conveniences. Hopefully I'll feel tomorrow. Maybe when I'm not throwing up every hour I will have a better. Maybe. But for some reason I doubt it.

Only an hour ago

I love how just an hour ago I was fuming. I was shaking and crying and actually threw up my body was in such a state of stress. But in just an hour I have completely come to terms with what happened. I knew it was coming. I knew it would be soon. It doesn't stop it from hurting like hell but it does help the anger go away. Its not like she wanted to hurt me. Its not like we wanted to fall out of love. But things do happen. And unfortunately people fall apart. But we are going to try to stay close. She's been my best friend for nearly two years so I pray I never lose that. And I don't think I will. Hard though it may be at first...I am sure we can do it.

Bad news from gay days

Nothing like having someone ruin your gay (happy and homosexual) day by telling you that they are through with you. Like. Couldn't it have waited? Did they really have to ruin the one day of the year that you look forward to all year? Especially when you've now been together for nearly a year. I pretty much am fucking angry and hurt and crying and angry and lost right now. I don't even really know what to say. Someone help me make things right. I AM done with her. She was horrible to me anyway. But I was and kinda still am in love. Which makes this one of the most painful things of my life. I need friends right now. And who do I have.I really don't. God. I am fucking depressed

$1,000

WOW! I am in total shock. I cannot believe I have spent a thousand dollars in about two weeks. That's insane. Granted I did spend over 600 on my computer and programs for it. I also spent about a hundred dollars on a very nice outfit for an future interviews. Which I hope I will have soon... Ok. So now that it is in retrospect I probably spent about two fifty or three hundred in two weeks. That's not too horrible...

Wrong Number

Have you ever gotten a wrong number that believed you were lying about it being a wrong number? Well just that happened to me today. Some little girl (my guess is that she is a middle school student) sent me multiple texts about how cute she thought some boy was and how she thought that there was some boy that “definitely had the hots” for me, or at least the intended recipient of the texts. I simply replied to her this morning that I believed she had the wrong number. She laughed and told me how funny I was and that she knew I was only kidding. I told her no that I was not kidding and that my name was Sarah, not the intended Gloria. This pissed her off. She now believed her friend Gloria to have given her her sister’s number. So she begged me not to tell anyone what she had said about the cute boy. I told her it wasn’t an issue because I didn’t know her or the people she was talking about. She started cursing me out at this point. She’s still sending me nasty texts even though I have stopped responding. I miss it when it was just Christian’s friends getting wrong numbers. At least all of them were extremely polite and accepted the fact that sometimes you just dial the wrong number. Oh well. Not everyone can be mature and courteous. It’s a shame though.

Its been a lil while

Yes. I realize its been awhile since I have put in a new blog. But I have been busy. I skipped school for most of this week. But I don't think I really missed anything. I was actually able to retake a quiz I had missed and made a one hundred on it. So whoo! GO ME!!

But I have some amazing news. For me at least.... I have my very own brand new computer. I bought it two days ago. Its a pretty purple lap top. I am quite happy.

Lets hope that soon I am in the mood to actually put forth a worth while blog. But for now. I am going to go. Maybe search for some junk food!!

On the way from school

It pains me so much to still see American's sleeping outside. Driving past a local shelter I can see a couple dozen people sleeping outside... We need to fund our shelters better. We need to put an end to children sleeping on the streets. Help these people. Give them jobs. If they're handicapped, give them the care that they need. The only excuse for homelessness is laziness. Its unacceptable, and deplorable!

What a horrible name

 Would you ever go to a church where the pastors name was Aushwitz?? I know I couldn't. They're prob a bunch of neo natzis. Jk. But maybe. I mean, if you didn't hate jews wouldn't you change your name? Would you really want to be tied to a name that brought up so much pain?

Pit in my stomach

I've been doing a lot of reflections lately and dear god I have gotten touchy. I never realized what a jealous person I was until two days ago. I was reading someones blog (though now  blogspot one) and they were listing off all their friends and how much they meant to them. This person was someone that I thought was one of my best friends. And I wasn't even mentioned. I have helped them through so much. I have always selflessly put myself out there for them. I never wanted anything in return. But I guess at least validation as a friend would have been nice. They were far from the first person to do it. People are so fucking selfish. It infuriates me. Makes me feel like being a bitch to everyone. People come to me when they have a problem. I talk it out with them. I help sort it out. Put things in perspective. Once that person is ok again they seem to totally forget about me until they have an issue again.
IS THAT ALL YOU FUCKING THINK I'M GOOD FOR?!?!?!
Obviously so. Clearly people only want me when they need me to make things better for them. People are so selfish by nature. So back stabbing and out for self-preservation. But let me say something to anyone who is reading this...

One doesn't need to ruin others in order to preserve themselves.

 So fuck you all. I'm done.

Lesbitarian!!!!

Yes! The lesbitarian is back. What IS a lesbitarian you may ask? Let me inform ya! Its a lesbian vegetarian. Absolutely no meat. No dead animals. No penises.
This is only like the eighteenth time that I have done this. I was a vegetarian for like two years solid, then before on and off for about five. So this is nothing new to me. I know how to do it healthy now. No more trips to the hospital for weakness... But that wasn't my fault. I blame my mom. She refused to help me so I barely ate. I basically starved.
But that won't happen this time. My dad is super supportive and vegetarian food is so good. It should help my health. Thats the real reason I am doing it. I need to get healthy. I've been getting these fake panic attacks lately. They're scaring me. I think they are triggered by water. That can't be healthy.