I'm bored so why not

Survey One 

Where did you begin 2009?
I was working downtown at Panchero's

What was your status by Valentine’s Day?
I was taken


Were you in school anytime this year?
Yup Yup VCC


How did you earn your money?
I had a job for about seven months, then sitting

Did you have to go to the hospital?
To visit someone but not for me



Did you have any encounters with the police?
I always do. But I am never the one in trouble


Would you relive 2009 over and over again?
Hell FUCKING NO.

What did you purchase that was over $1000?
Tuition??




 
Did you know anybody who got married?
Yes quite a few. Amber and Zach prob being the closest

 
Did you know anyone who passed away?
I knew who they were but didn't know them personally

 
Did you know anyone who had a baby?
Um.. I am trying to think. No one that I talk to. But they are all due in Jan



 
Did you move anywhere?
Nope. I stayed put for once










 
What concerts/shows did you go to?
I dunno. Multiple with my dad. Too many to count

 
Do you still have the same job as you did in 2008?
I wish 


Has anyone betrayed you in 2009?
Eh not really


 
Where do you live now?
Hell. Well not hell. But hell is just down the street


 
Describe your birthday.
It was eh. But the day before was pretty awesome. Gay Days

What’s one thing you thought you’d never do but did in 2009?
I can't honestly think of anything



 
What has been your favorite moment?
My birthday present???

What’s something you learned about yourself?
I am more and more like my mother everyday 


 

 
Any new additions to your family?
Nope. But coming soon. 

 
What was your best month?
January

 
Were you in a relationship this year?
Yes,

New friend?
Alexis (btw not the most flattering picture you posted darlin)

Favorite night out?
I dunno.

 
Would you say you’ve changed since the beginning of this year?
Yea. A lot

 
Do you think 2010 will be better or worse?
I pray its better and I will do everything in my power to make it so

 
Did your style change in 2009?
Kinda. I don't dress up anymore

Do you think you showed your parents enough respect this year?
I dunno. Prob not
 

Where will you end 2009 at?
This  has yet  to be decided.

Because I believe in the power of the human mind

Please read the following blog
http://classyinphilly.blogspot.com/2009/12/for-brandy.html

Thats all folks!
Be a doll and pass it on

Its Christmas Eve Day

I am quite excited. We actually have a Christmas tree and stockings up this year. We had presents under the tree starting from very early December and whoopee we are opening them tonight. I know that is a little abnormal I know. But my dad works tomorrow so we decided to do it tonight. I am very very very excited.
I will update this after I open presents and the pup and dad open theirs

This is bliss

Both of my girls are sleeping in my arms. Oh wonderful night :D

I feel as if my story never changes

So maybe it is me who needs to make some huge changes. I am still the same person I was in middle school. Granted I have gained some wisdom throughout the years. But I haven't changed. If you knew me then you know me now.
I feel the same things. That's why I felt this blog was necessary. I am a person who needs to be with people. But I think I get overwhelmed by more than one person. So I appear to cling to that person. And I guess I do cling. But thats really biting me in the ass. I need that human interaction, but for someone who isn't like me (not centered on one person) I must seem intolerable
I guess this is a message to my girl. Saying that I am sorry that I need to be with you so much. I know that I drive you crazy. But thank you so much for dealing with me and my needy whiny bull shit. I do love you ever so much. And I'm going to try to lay off some...

But ultimately you make me fear making other friends. Last time I branched out and had friends other than you, you freaked out. Every move was looked at with suspension. I never wanted anyone but you, and I still don't. I wish you would get that through your head. Wish you weren't so insecure. If we can just work on your confidence issues, then maybe I can break out and finally have friends again. Not be scared to make plans with other people. But as it is now I fear that by making new connections I weaken ours.

Does anyone else feel like this at times? Or am I completely clingy and suffering from Dependent Personality Disorder?

To audition or not to audition

That is NOT my question. I wasn't able to go to my audition today. My girl decided she didn't want to go. Said she didn't have the time. Which very well may be true. But without her I had no way to get home. So... I didn't go. BBUUUTTT!!! There is another audition on January 7th. I am going. No doubt about it. The two week break gives me time to get shit together though. Time to get back in shape. Time to get back into the swing of dancing. To get a headshot done. And to put together a theater resume. I'm gonna do it. I think I would be good at it. I will be an outstanding employee. Do absolutely everything in my power to go above and beyond the call of duty. Oh joy!

But... about those headshots. Is there anyone out there who has a decent enough camera to help me out? I need them by the 6th. Depending on the quality of the print I am willing to compensate (unless I have to print and edit myself). If no one has the time or camera, do you know of a good photographer in the area that is affordable? The quicker someone is able to get back to me the better  :)

I promise I haven't fallen off the face of the earth

I'm still alive you guys! Isn't that just amazing. Sorry for my lack of updates. I have been very busy with school. I made A's in both of my classes! So at least I know that my hard work pays off. Just hope I can do the same next term. I will be switching campuses, THANK GOD, and taking nineteen course hours. Its going to be ridiculous and overwhelming. But if I want to be at UCF by Fall then this is what I need. And I know that if I try hard enough and stay focused I can do it. And pass with high marks.

Other than school I have been working on improving my personal life. I know one of my last real entries was about my relationship falling apart. Well as of this moment things are wonderful again. Whatever it is that we are it cannot be defined. But that doesn't bother me anymore. I am happy. I should be content, and am content, in knowing that I am loved. Really that's all I want out of life. Someone beside me to hold me at night and who truly loves me. That is the perfect life. There are bound to be disagreements and fights, but from each hard place you come to value the good times all the more. I wish more people saw things that way.

The only two things in my life I'm not content with are my lack of job and my body. While my hunt for a job has thus far been fruitless, I am going to an audition at Disney tomorrow with the girl. (she shall hence forth be referred to as my girl until situations change) And as far as the other aspect. I start a diet next week. I've done this one before. Its pretty easy to follow. And highly effective. I would have already started but I have to go grocery shopping first. And since I don't get any money until Friday.... Yes. Wait til Monday. Come Monday I will begin. Come 2010 I will be myself again. I will be revived. I will FEEL beautiful again.

Its a shame that I place so much of my happiness on my exterior. But I am still a teenager, though only for six months, who lives in America. Its been conditioned in me from as early as I can remember that thin is in. Thin is beautiful and to be large is to be disgusting and without self-control. Now. Don't get me wrong. I do know that that is not the correct way of thinking. I know that everything I said is ridiculous and false. However, its a feeling. Emotions and logic do not go hand in hand. For those of you who know about my past, don't worry. This will not be a repeat of that. I am going to be adhering to a very strict diet plan. I will work out three times a week. I will take drastic steps to give myself the best life I possibly can by being as healthy as possible.

Now if I have anyone out there who is willing to be a workout buddy... Well so be it. I would GREATLY appreciate some company and extra motivation!

Well. Thats all I have for now. I have plenty more to write but just can't right now. Someone should text and remind me to update this damn thing every now and then

It was scary how accurate most of that test was

I suggest you try it too. It only takes a matter of seconds

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